CR@ZY N LOV3

Today hasn’t been a very good day.

I woke up at 11 to a phone call.

My aunt.

She had to tell me something very important.

It was about my dad.

Well what about him…

I already knew he was in the hospital with pneumonia…

And….

Well it’s more serious…

More serious like what?

Well he really didn’t want you to know…

Tell me. NOW!!!

Well…it’s hard to tell you this over the phone.

Just tell me please.

Well your dad…is basically dying.

What the fuck? What do you mean he is basically dying.

Brandi…your dad has….your dad has…

My dad has what? Spit it out!

Your dad is HIV positive.

What the fuck!?!

It’s worse.

How the fuck can anything be worse?

It’s not HIV anymore….It’s full-blown AIDS.

How the fuck can he have AIDS?

He has had it since 1994.

How come no one told me? What the fuck. This is bullshit.

Your mom wants to say she loves you but she is crying too hard.

Yeah whatever…How come no one ever told me.

Your dad was embarrassed.

I don’t give a shit if he was embarrassed…I am his daughter, I had a right to know.

Yes you did have a right to know..but he had the right to not tell you.

How bad is it?

His cd4 cell count is 173.

What should it be?

Well a person without AIDS is 1280 or higher.

Is he going to die?

Not right this minute but he doesn’t have that much time left.

This is bullshit.

Please don’t be upset.

Fuck the world….and fuck everyone who knew and didn’t tell me.

I’m sorry.

Why did you know?

No.

Then you have nothing to be sorry for.

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My day fucking sucked.

Fuck the world.

Fuck everyone who knew.

Fuck everything right now.

I hate this shit.

It’s not fair.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK