CR@ZY N LOV3

The sky is slowly turning gray. The days are getting longer and a lot harder to deal with. It’s almost too much to bare. My head is filled with emptiness. I keep hiding behind this mask of happiness when I am decaying from the inside out. Maybe I will pop another happy pill so you can stand to be near me again. Keep your head up buttercup. That’s what he said when he walked out the door this morning. Oh but I’m sure he would have picked somethin else to say if he knew those were going to be his last words to me. Baby please show me the light. It’s getting dark in here and I’m losing my faith. I’m not even safe in my dreams anymore. I just keep thinking about the horrible things going wrong in my life. Oh god. My eyes are closing. I can’t let that happen, I must not go to sleep again the blackness that comes over me when I sleep is unimaginable I have to pop another pill, snort another line, stick another needle in my arm, cut my wrists some more. Something oh anything to keep the black night away. I can’t go back to sleep. Please keep me in the light, don’t send me back to that place. My wrists will be cut so deep if I go back. I can’t go back to that place. The darkness overwhelms me .