July 2009
2 posts
MMMM hmmm
I feel so much for him it is ridiculous. I think my biggest problem is that I fall too hard. Well this time I fell… and someone caught me… Someone who has promised to treat me right. Hopefully he doesn’t break his promise. <3 I am just going along for a ride on a cute little love boat with him. Right now & so far things have been nothing but happy. Which is a first for...
Random ass poetry snipets...
The sky is slowly turning gray. The days are getting longer and a lot harder to deal with. It’s almost too much to bare. My head is filled with emptiness. I keep hiding behind this mask of happiness when I am decaying from the inside out. Maybe I will pop another happy pill so you can stand to be near me again.
Keep your head up buttercup. That’s what he said when he walked out...
March 2009
1 post
You never know what someone is hiding.....
I have changed a lot since graduation.
Well, most of the change has happened just in 2009.
So for all of you who has good fortune in 09, congrats….Where as I haven’t been so lucky.
I am going to tell you what has happened to me in these 3 short months….
Some of you will think I have serious issues, some will just read this and move on, some of you have already stopped...
February 2009
11 posts
wOw
For some crazy reason everyone thinks Britney Spear’s song ‘Circus’ describes me completely.
My question is WTF!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!
Don’t bother with me…i’m only out on parole.
*B3AUTIFUL DISAST3R*
They always think you’ve got it all.
Brains, beauty, lots of friends, caring and daring.
Like you’ve got the whole world at your fingertips and all you have to do is reach.
Almost as if it’s only night and day because you exist.
They put you on a diamond in-crested pedestal and look up to you.
But all they see is that got it all goddess.
When truly inside her mind,...
BRUISES:::::::::::::>
Black and blue but all of it’s true. They hurt, they sting all the way through. Pushing and shoving, none of it’s loving. I’m hurting inside, coming out is all the feelings I hide. I whine, I cry, sometimes I think I can’t get by. The bruises are showing, everyone is knowing. Please don’t touch, they hurt too much. Don’t cry for me, one day i’ll be free....
Feb. 17, 2009
Well today was a little better than yesterday.
I am going to Sarasota on Friday and staying until Sunday.
That way I can see people and spend time with my dad.
I haven’t talked to him today but I am going to call him tomorrow.
I hope he gets a little better.
A healthy person without HIV/AIDS t-cell count is 1280.
My dad’s t-cell count is 173.
Plus the pneumonia is making it drop...
FUCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK
Today hasn’t been a very good day.
I woke up at 11 to a phone call.
My aunt.
She had to tell me something very important.
It was about my dad.
Well what about him…
I already knew he was in the hospital with pneumonia…
And….
Well it’s more serious…
More serious like what?
Well he really didn’t want you to know…
Tell me. NOW!!!
...
BRITTN3Y N M3 IS CRAZYYYYYYYY
[19:08] Brittney loveTMD: OMG BFF ILY
[19:08] DirrtyNiglet90: ily 2
[19:08] DirrtyNiglet90: brb
[19:09] Brittney loveTMD: kkkkk
[19:19] Brittney loveTMD: come back imiss oyu
[19:19] Brittney loveTMD: aahhhhh
[19:21] DirrtyNiglet90: what
[19:21] Brittney loveTMD: i missed you
[19:21] DirrtyNiglet90: really
[19:21] DirrtyNiglet90: went to the store
[19:21] DirrtyNiglet90: lol
[19:21] Brittney...
I make her question my sanity.....
DirrtyNiglet90: HEY HOE
Brittney loveTMD: HEY
DirrtyNiglet90: AM I YOUR BESTIE?
Brittney loveTMD: YES
DirrtyNiglet90: AWWW REALLY?????
Brittney loveTMD: duh!
DirrtyNiglet90:
Brittney loveTMD: what is wrong with you
DirrtyNiglet90: COOL
DirrtyNiglet90: NOTHING
DirrtyNiglet90: LOL
DirrtyNiglet90: YOUR MY BESTIE TOO
Brittney loveTMD: why would you ask me that
Brittney loveTMD: lol
DirrtyNiglet90:
DirrtyNiglet90: BECAUSE I AM FUNNY
DirrtyNiglet90: ARGGGGHHHH HAHAHAHAHA
DirrtyNiglet90: I AM A DORK
Brittney loveTMD: hahaha weirdo
DirrtyNiglet90: .................
THEN I QUESTION HERS......
Brittney loveTMD: i'm thristy get me some water
DirrtyNiglet90: i was going to get rootbeer
DirrtyNiglet90: lol
DirrtyNiglet90:
Brittney loveTMD: oooh get me one
DirrtyNiglet90: okie dokie...
DirrtyNiglet90: you do realize you are in a computer screen right.....?
Brittney loveTMD: oh, that's what this thing is?
Brittney loveTMD: ok now i understand
DirrtyNiglet90: whack job
DirrtyNiglet90: but i will still get a glass of rootbeer for you
DirrtyNiglet90:
DirrtyNiglet90: Just use a straw
Brittney loveTMD: good iDEA
Brittney loveTMD: LETS DO IT
DirrtyNiglet90: okie dokie
B3STI3
I have a best friend.
Her name is Brittney.
I couldn’t ask for a better friend in the entire world.
We haven’t known each other since pre-k.
We didn’t know each other in middle school.
We met in high school.
I promise you the year I met her was the best year ever.
Don’t worry because the years following were just as good.
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Quotes......
These are a lot of quotes that I found that I seemed to like…..
Don’t say you love me unless you really mean it, because I might do something crazy like believe it.
I lie you because of who you are to me. I hate you because of what you did to me. I miss you because you got her, not me. I love you and that’s how it will always be.
I loved you once, you loved me not. I loved you...
